5 Year Anniversary

At my cousin's wedding back in November, she told me they were going to Disneyland for their honeymoon. I turned to Brian and said, "We should go to Disneyland for our anniversary!" As he did multiple times during this pregnancy, he just looked at me and waited. After a few moments I realized that I was due two days after our anniversary. So besides the fact that I couldn't fly there (no airline would even think about it) and I wouldn't want to spend 16 hours in a car to drive there, I wouldn't be able to go on any rides when we got there & I would be way far from home if the baby started to come. Hence, the plan for Disneyland went out the window.

Because I am 9 months pregnant for our anniversary, it was really low key. Brian had to work, but he came home and took me to dinner at Olive Garden. He offered to take me to a movie after, but I was so tired and uncomfortable, we settled on just going home and cuddling instead. Though we did stop at the store and he got me some Ben & Jerry's ice cream.

Even though we didn't do anything big to celebrate, I'm still so grateful for the wonderful man that I married. He is so good to me. He's been so supportive and helpful during this pregnancy. He takes such good care of me. I know he'll be a great dad and I'm so excited to see it.

22 Weeks

22 Weeks

Well, there you go. I hope my sister Nat appreciates these pictures, because they're mostly for her because she's not around to see me get all big and round. And as I get bigger I get less inclined to want to post these. But I love you Nat.

In other news, I have failed at NaNoWriMo. I had a good couple days, but then I needed a night of Brian just rubbing my belly and then there was a wedding and then I just gave up. Maybe next year I'll try again.

Also, a couple weeks ago, Brian started feeling the baby move! Last night we were laying in bed and he was just talking about architecture stuff and the baby started kicking. He thinks it's a sign, but I think it's mostly that the baby likes Brian's voice. I can't argue with that. I often fall asleep to Brian talking (in a good way.)

We're still struggling to find a name. It's really hard. I want to find something that none of our cousins have, or have used for their kids. That's a lot of names. And then there's the problem of finding something that doesn't make our parents go, "eh". I've decided to stop telling our parents any of the names until we know what we want, and then they have to like it. :)

And I know it shouldn't matter, but I don't want people to think our name is weird, or that we're going for some theme (because we already know what we want to name a girl someday). I guess I'll just have to get some thicker skin.

It's Thanksgiving next week! So excited. And then I get to decorate for Christmas! Yay!

Again: Any suggestions for names are welcome. :)

St. George 2011

This year for Fall Break.... oh wait. We don't have Fall Break anymore because.... we're not in school!!! Wahoo!

Actually, we did end up going down to St. George over Fall Break anyway. We were hoping that Brian's cousin and his wife (who is also pregnant, & due 5 days before me) could come with us. Sadly, they could not. Brian & I still had fun without them.

Brian got in a few bike rides, which always makes him happy.

I just got to relax and do absolutely nothing, which makes me happy too.

And we did some shopping, which usually makes us both happy. This year was a little different.

I am about 17 1/2 weeks along. Not showing a ton to those who don't see me without clothes on. (Meaning: Everyone besides myself and Brian.)

But to me, I am starting to show. I'm at that in between point where if you don't know me you think I normally look like this, but if you know me (and look really hard) you can tell something's different. But I just want to show enough that people know I'm pregnant.

Maybe it's only a first time mom thing. So here's my advice to first time moms:
If you don't feel like you look pregnant enough, go shopping.

I was just looking for some longer shirts, and yes, some maternity pants for work. This shopping trip didn't last very long (and not just because I was too tired to keep going.)

Nothing fits like it used to! (Obviously) I'm wearing sizes I don't usually wear! (Obviously)

I was not prepared. But it definitely helped me feel pregnant.

We ended the shopping trip by getting an "Apple Pie" caramel apple from the chocolate store. Totally made me feel better.

The other thing that makes it totally worth it to almost start crying in Target because you're wearing maternity pants:

At 17 weeks, I started to feel my baby move.

Kicking, all the time.

This is definitely Brian's child. They never hold still for long.

Seattle!

Brian just spent the past two days in Seattle. A firm up there asked him to come in for an interview. While he was there he also stopped by a couple other firms to drop off his resume. And then he spent the rest of the time wandering around downtown Seattle taking pictures and enjoying the city.

He said he felt like the interview went well. But he was their first one so they said they'll let us know by the end of the month. Which is still a whole month away. But we're still excited that he got an interview. Keep your fingers crossed for us!

Recent Happenings

Well Summer is just flying by. Here is a few things we've been up to: (Sorry for the lack of pictures. We just haven't taken any lately.)

• June 24th - Annual Ward Camp out.
• We have only stayed the night once in the 4 years we've been in this ward. That tells you how much I like camping.
• But I love going up for dinner! We have a guy in our ward who makes Award-winning turkeys. For reals. SO GOOD.
• I love our ward. It's always so much fun to go up there and chat with everyone.

• June 25th - Day of Babies
• First I went to the baby blessing of my cousin's little boy. They had it at their house and held a luncheon in the backyard. So fun to see lots of family and to hold that little guy. :)
• I headed straight from that to a baby shower for one of my best friend's growing up. She's due in September and was so surprised to see me. (It was a ward shower and since I'm no longer in that ward.... but then again, neither is she.) Glad I could go and see her.

• June 26th - 30th - BEAR LAKE
• This year we only had 16 people on our fullest day. By the last day there were only 5 of us. But we still had a great time.
• Monday Brian and I went for our annual 10-mile bike ride. I promptly got sunburned and my sit bones were so sore that I couldn't go on any more rides the whole trip. That's what I get for only riding once a year. Brian of course rode another 30 miles after that because he took my brother and two cousins out for rides when we got back. He wasn't even tired.
• We also did Minute-to-Win-it! We only did a few games because there were so few of us, but it was still fun.
• The rest of the time was spent just relaxing, watching movies, chatting with family, and eating. Don't forget the eating.
• While at Bear Lake, Brian received a request from a firm to send more of his work for them to review. This got us very excited! Brain promptly looked up their site and fell in love with them. They would be a really nice place to work for. We haven't heard anything since but we're not giving up yet.

• 4th of July Weekend
• On the 3rd my sister and her husband came into town. No big deal, except my sister now lives in Minnesota! So we were happy to have them.
• On the 4th we slept in. SO NICE! Then we had breakfast with Brian's family and he fixed about 5 bikes.
• Then we went to lunch with my family (Burger King as usual). Then we saw Transformers 3. I'll just say, it was better than the second, but not as good as the first.
• And then we had a BBQ. Walker chicken. If you haven't had it, you don't know good BBQ chicken. End of story.
• The only downside is that we didn't go see any fireworks. Brian and I were pretty bummed. But on the drive home we saw plenty all over the valley. Pretty cool. We'll have to catch them on the 24th.
• On the 5th, we had a Barlow get-together. Some of my cousin's and their families who live in WA & TX were in town, so we all got together to catch up. Lots of food and laughing, and very loud talking, as usual. :)

Something else worth noting: We got a BIG air conditioner! We were talking at the family dinner and mentioned that it's so hot in our apartment because our little unit just can't handle it. Well, my uncle manages a few apartments and he keeps AC units in case his renters want them. He said we could borrow one! So the very next day he brought it over and Brian installed it. HEAVEN! It cools our whole apartment. WONDERFUL! Like my sister said, I couldn't have been a pioneer. It's a struggle for me to survive without air conditioning and electricity.

Last weekend Brian had taken off Friday & Saturday to go to a Father & Sons camp out with his family. But then he decided he didn't want to go camping and he'd rather spend the weekend with me! So we got to spend a whole Saturday together, which I don't think has happened our whole marriage (except when we're on vacation). Well, most of the day. Brian still went for a bike ride in the morning, but I spent that time reading, so we each got to do something we love.

We went to lunch with my friend Richard from college and his wife Wendy & their new son Will. Way fun to catch up with them. And the baby was adorable!

Since we met them for lunch at the Gateway, we decided to spend the day shopping. :) Brian bought me some capris, a skirt, and a cute top to match. Then we wandered around and we both got some new sandals. We then spent the better part of an hour sipping large Orange Julius' and people watching. It was so great!

We saw X-Men: First Class using some gift cards I had stored up. I loved it. Not as much as the first, but when is anything as good as the first?

We then grabbed some pizza on the way home and snuggled on the couch to eat it. It was just a really great day.

Date Spot

Brian and I have noticed that sometimes, when we are just out and about, without a real plan, we usually end up at Office Max, sitting in their comfy office chairs, discussing our future home and plans. I don't know why, but it's very relaxing. Probably because Brian can enjoy the thoughts of designing our home, and I am surrounded by paper and pens, which are soothing to me. (Weird, I know.)

So, if you're looking for somewhere to go and just relax, for free, we recommend Office Max.

And then go home and have some orange cream-sicles. So yummy. :)

Brian's Birthday/Graduation Party

Brian is now 27! My 19 days of being a "cougar" are over. I threw him a birthday/graduation party to celebrate. We invited a bunch of friends from the ward and our immediate families. I did everything in lime green (Brian's favorite color) and we all had fun just chatting. The weather cooperated for the most part. It didn't rain, but it wasn't particularly warm.



The best part for me was when I brought out Brian's gift. I surprised him with the commuter bike he had been hoping for. I figured that it was for his birthday & his Masters graduation, so I figured he deserved something really great.

He was totally surprised and I was so happy that I was able to pull it off. I never seem to be able to get him something he doesn't expect.

He went for a ride right away.

The new bike. He has since re-wrapped the handle bars in lime green.

Thanks to everyone for coming!

Happy Birthday Brian!

Day to Day

Well, after all the excitement of graduation, we have now settled into a routine.

Mine hasn't changed much. I got to work, every day. Whoopdy-do.

Brian works almost every day on his portfolio (almost finished!) and when he's not working on that, he works at the bike shop (or goes on bike rides, since he's been so deprived in the last four years.)

I have started looking online for Architecture jobs and I'm getting really antsy about finding out where we're going.

Brian is feeling less excited about moving because he realizes he's leaving all his biking friends.

He's also afraid we'll move somewhere without any of these to ride on:

I have also started thinking about a business idea that I could do from home. I don't think I'd make much money, and it wouldn't happen until we move probably, but I'm still mulling it around in my head.

Next week we're going to Arizona for Brian's cousin's wedding. I'm excited for the break and for the warmth.

I'm almost finished with this:

So I ordered this, to hopefully help fill the 22 hours of driving we'll be doing:

But I guess I waited too long to order it. Because it's sitting in the UPS Regional Processing Facility, in WEST VALLY CITY.

Do you think if I just wandered in, they'd let me just pick it up? I need it by Sunday.

Brian wants another one of these:

(Disclaimer: This is not the actual bike he wants. I have no idea what it really looks like.)

I told him he has to sell one of his other two bikes first. He thinks this is unfair.

(Not really, he understands my logic, he just doesn't really like it all that much.)

We got our extension request approved by housing. (Good thing, otherwise we'd be moving in 2 weeks.)

Our official move out date is on or before September 15th.

At least that's some kind of plan. :)

It does make it a little more real, which is weird, but happy at the same time.

And so that's our life for now. Exciting, huh?

HE'S DONE!!!

After 4, long, hard years in the Architecture program, Brian graduated today with his Master's degree!

There were a lot of sleepless nights, and times when neither of us thought it would ever end, but here we are.

The other side.

Brian right after getting his diploma (case).

I'll admit, I got a little emotional when he walked off the stage and I gave him a hug.

But it was only because I am so proud of him and all the hard work he's done to get here.

I'll also admit, I screamed the very loudest when his name was called. 

Brian (and other students) will vouch that they could hear me above anyone else.

"Master" Brian & Melissa

Brian & his parents

Derek, Brian & Curtis

Brian & grandparents

 Good job Brian! I'm so proud and I know you'll be great!

I love you!

Brian's Masters Thesis Project

Tonight the Architecture College hosted a reception for the Masters students to show off their Thesis projects down at Trolley Square. They had fancy appetizers and drinks, and it was just a fun time for friends and family to come see what these students have been working on all semester.

Brian in front of his final board

Brian & Melissa

I know I'm biased, but I thought Brian did a great job. He had multiple people, including other students, come up and compliment him on his project and his awesome renderings and models. His great-uncle, Frank, came and he said he really liked Brian's project. That was high praise because he's a pretty well-known architect himself.

~~~

A couple days later, we heard a few more compliments from Frank. He told Brian's grandma that he was really impressed by Brian's project and couldn't stop thinking about it. He said that he wanted to take us out to dinner to discuss Brian's options. (!) He also said that Brian should "cast his net far."

We had originally thought we would only apply in Utah because both of our families are here. But after hearing his uncle say he thinks Brian would do better to work in a bigger city, we are now seriously considering moving out of state. It's a little scary, but also very exciting.

Late Nights

This week is the last week before Brian's Masters Thesis Project is due.

Like every semester, that means each night he gets home later and later.

I'm used to this by now, but it still doesn't stop me from staying up way too late, hoping he might come home early.

So to keep me entertained, here's a list:

Signs It's a Finals Week in the Architecture Program:

• Most of the students have bloodshot eyes, a side effect of not blinking for 12 hours straight while working on the computer.
• People around you are wearing the same clothes you saw them in 24 hours before.
• By the last night, one of the girls has broken down in tears about not being able to finish in time.
• At least one person has cut off part of a finger using an Exacto knife. (And they may or may not go to the hospital, depending on how close they are to finishing.) (Sometimes they just fix it using Superglue.)
• You start talking, pause, and then don't understand why your wife gives you a funny look. Then you realize you finished the sentence in your head.
• People randomly burst out singing, headphones in, but not caring anymore because they're so tired. (Some do it without the headphones.)
• Any loud noise or tipping over of materials makes the whole studio gasp in fear that it's someones model breaking.
• The only sleep you get is in your other classes.
• You're lucky if you remember to put down your Exacto knife and eat something.
• You give your wife a kiss goodnight as she gives you a kiss good morning.

It's nice to know that this is the LAST time though. We're almost there!

Spring Break

For Brian's last Spring Break we headed down to our favorite vacation spot, St. George.

On Thursday Brian and I both got our teeth cleaned by my sister Natalie.

That afternoon Brian went on a bike ride with his cousin Jason.

That night, they weren't home for dinner. Brian called to say that it had gotten dark so they were walking their bikes back to the car.

They didn't get home until 10:00 that night.

And it was then that I found out that they were actually lost. And they wandered around in the almost-dark for hours trying to find their car.

Brian said they spent the whole time praying and almost knelt down together on the trail. And then they found the car.

I'm glad they got home safe.

On Friday we all went to the temple.

We'd never been to the St. George temple so it was fun to go through with my brother, sister, brother-in-law, and grandparents.

We got to see where my parents were sealed and it was a nice way to spend a rainy day.

That evening we did some shopping, which the boys just loved.

Brian actually likes shopping for me. He makes me try on new things and buy stuff I wouldn't usually.

I got some really cute shoes that are a little on the wild side and a fun new purse.

For dinner that night we went to one of those frozen yogurt places. Perfect dinner in my opinion.

Saturday Brian did a ride in the morning and then we went to see Tangled with my sister.

That night we played games with Nat and Adam and some of their friends.

Sunday was perfect weather.

We walked to church and listened to my grandparents speak. They did a good job.

My grandma made us a great dinner and then we headed home.

It was a nice relaxing vacation. I'm sad we had to come home.

But after this year, we can go down whenever we want.

Anniversary #4

I love that everyone celebrates our anniversary by wearing green in honor of our wedding colors. *sarcasm*

Happy St. Patrick's Day/Anniversary!

Today, Brian woke up at 5:30am (which is a time that I cannot function at.)

He has a review tomorrow at school.

He worked at school from 6:00 am to 6:00 pm, staring at his computer screen.

Then he came home, picked me up and took me out to Draper.

We grabbed a fancy Arby's dinner on the way.

And then we spent the night in the temple.

My little brother Brad went through for the first time, and we got to be there.

It was a very special night because my sister Nat and her husband Adam were able to come too.

And even though the temple worker kept looking at Brian funny, because of his bloodshot eyes, it was a lot of fun.

I'm so proud of Brad and the decisions he's making.

And we ended the night with my dad's homemade chocolate shakes that are better than anyone else's, no battle.

And then Brian crashed into bed when we got home.

Very romantic anniversary.

But this is the last year we'll have to "make-up" for our missed anniversary.

One month until Brian's final project is due!

Brian's Day

So this semester Brian has a "light" schedule. Only three classes.

Two are only once a week for 3 hours each, and the other is three times a week for 3 hours.

He doesn't have class until at least 2:00 on most days, and no class at all on Thursdays.

I'm jealous.

Anyway, today he was supposed to be studying for a midterm in his Architecture Law class at 6:00.

Here are a few things he did to break up a full day of studying:

Push ups
Cleaning off the coffee table
Reading his Photoshop book for his photography class
Washing the dishes
Cleaning the lint out of the back of the blow dryer

Really? Cleaning lint?

New Calling

Yesterday Brian and I were released as Ward Mission Co-Leader and Ward Missionary (I was also released as Primary Pianist). But the Bishop didn't give us much of a break. We were also called as Nursery Leaders.

I was a little hesitant about this calling at first, but after the bishop set me apart and gave me a blessing I know that this calling is from God. The bishop gave me a very personal blessing, addressing concerns and issues that I hadn't even discussed with him. It was a huge testimony builder that God knows me and that he communicates directly with bishop's about their congregation members. I cried and the bishop cried and the Spirit was very strong.

Today the bishop sent Brian and I an email reiterating his love for us and expounding on the blessing he'd given me the day before. It made me break down in tears at work (thankfully my boss wasn't here). I love our bishop and really appreciate the concern and love he has for our ward.

After this experience I have decided that I need to focus more on having faith that when we ask, we shall receive. Brian's been telling me for months to be positive and I finally made the connection that being positive is the same thing as having faith. So that's what I'm going to do.

Be Glad & Have Faith.

Rearranging

The other night Brian and I discovered that the only time we really get grumpy at each other is when we're moving.

This stems from the fact that we don't have the same method when moving things.

Actually, we do. We both agree that when you're moving things around or moving apartments, you should clean things out and get rid of things.

But I don't feel that 10:00 at night is the time to do this. So I decided we should just move the furniture and not worry about deep cleaning things.

However this frustrated Brian as he kept finding piles of things that he didn't know why we were keeping. And then he'd come ask me why we were keeping them.

Which frustrated me because I have a tendency to hold on to things just in case we might use them someday. A bad habit I picked up from my mom.

Brian tends to be more like my dad and just wants to throw it away. He even admitted that one day he'll just start throwing stuff away without asking me, which also upset me.

But it was all for a good purpose.

We got a new couch!!

It was a great deal, and we've been wanting a real couch instead of our futon for a while. It's our Valentine's/Anniversary gift to each other. 

It's nice and comfy and we can actually lay down on it together to watch movies. 

So happy!

The wall is a little bare because our hutch and bookshelf used to be there (as can be seen here). Brian's going to take pictures with his fancy camera to fill it up. I'm going to buy a cute shelf so I still have somewhere to put my decorations. :)

We moved everything to the back room so now it looks like this:

Still tiny, but we fit it all in.

Happy Friday!

In a Nutshell

Well January has just flown by. I really don't know where it went. I know it's not over yet, but it is the last week and I don't really know what we've done. Here are the highlights:

• Brian started his last semester! Hooray!!
• We babysat our friends kids. (When I say we, I mean me, because Brian was falling asleep an hour into it. Granted, he was getting sick and we didn't know it yet. But still.)
• I told Brian not to get me sick because he was leaving for New York and then I would be sick and home alone.
• He didn't listen.
• For Martin Luther King Day I went and got my eye's examined. Fun huh? But I'm getting some new frames, so that's fun for me.
• We went to dinner with my best friend and her husband and two kids. So fun.
• Brian's taking a photography class so he convinced me to let him get a new camera. A fancy camera.
• Brian left for New York Wednesday at 10:00 PM.
• I proceeded to not go to bed before midnight each night he was gone. Not a good plan when you're sick.
• Had a fun night hanging out with my family while Brian was in gone. My sister came into town.
• Did a lot of cross-stitching and catching up on old TV shows.
• Realized I do not eat very healthy when Brian's not around. I just don't feel like it's worth the hassle to make something when half of it won't get eaten.
• Brian came home last night!!!

So yeah, that's pretty much everything we've been up to. I haven't looked at Brian's pictures from his trip yet, but if he took any cool ones I'll be sure to post them. I'm sure they're all of buildings and stuff.

In book news: I am behind. Shocker. I hoped to catch up while Brian was gone, but then I wasn't feeling great. Excuses I know, but still. Hopefully I can catch up this week.

January is just a blah month, as so many people have already pointed out.

Christmas 2010

I'm sad to say that I, personally, took no pictures this Christmas. I guess I'll just have to steal some from my mom.

Christmas was great this year. Very low-key and relaxed. We spent the night at my parent's house and all the kids were able to fit into the room in the basement so we were back to our traditional sleepover on Christmas Eve. I found it hard to go to sleep because I was so happy to be with my family and we have the best time teasing each other.

Christmas morning we had Monkey bread with hot chocolate and orange juice. We opened stockings and then presents. We were so blessed this year and received lots of fun stuff. But I always like to remember what I gave instead of what I got. A few presents I was excited to give this year were:

• Bow ties to Brian. He's wanted one for a while now so he can look like our High Councilman, Brother Knott. And the other Architecture student in our ward wears one so Brian decided he needed one too.
• Countdown blocks for my sister Nat. I made these myself. Well I painted and glued and vinyled (not sure that's a verb). I don't have a saw to cut wood myself.
• A Malagasy Book of Mormon to my brother Brad. I know he can't read it yet, but I thought it was a pretty cool gift and he seemed pretty excited. We were looking through it and the words for "Doctrine & Covenants" each have 8 syllables. 8 each! 16 syllables to say two words that take us 5 syllables. Good Luck Brad!

After presents at my house we went to Brian's for just a little bit. When we'd woken up at 7:30 Brian joked that we should call his family because they were probably done by then. We found out that he was right. :)

Unfortunately we weren't able to stay long because we were going to visit my Grandma Barlow in the hospital. She had a bad fall about a week before and had to have surgery on her shoulder. It was said to see her like that, but I'm glad we got to go visit on Christmas.

After spending some time there, we headed up to Bountiful to spend the rest of the day with my Grandma & Grandpa Walker. We had a yummy lunch and then watched "Date Night" the edited version, which my parents had gotten for me and my sister.

I also ended up finishing Brian's final present, which was an afghan he had requested about 2 weeks before Christmas. It's huge! But I finished it on Christmas so I still made the deadline. And he loves it. So do I.

Overall, a great Christmas. We are so blessed and so grateful for our wonderful families and friends.

Here's to a fabulous 2011!

On my mind...

The other night Brian mentioned that maybe he'll start shaving only when I shave. Do you think he's trying to tell me something?

I went to a bridal shower last night and had 3 cupcakes. They were so good I couldn't stop myself.

I just finished reading this:

It's really made me rethink some things. I want to start my own project.

I stumbled across this page today. It made me almost cry with happiness.

(I really need to get more sleep. Crying over paintings? Really.)

I just wish I could afford one. Maybe this one:

I wish I could afford all of them. I wish I had a place to hang them.

I think the reason I like them so much is because they capture the "magic" I'm always trying to explain to Brian.

And once again, I'm wishing I was in Disneyland. I know, I've got a problem.

There's one for Pinnochio and I just started singing "When You Wish Upon a Star" in my head.

I really need to think of something else.

I'm working on a tree skirt for Christmas. It's huge. It takes up our whole living room right now.

Not that our living room is that big. But I'll trim it down once I'm done.

(Did you see the connection there? Disneyland -> Magic -> Christmas. It works.)

Though I'm still trying to figure out what Brian & I should be for the Halloween parties coming up.

I hate coming up with "Couple's Costumes". I'm just not creative that way.

Any suggestions?

Lame Title

I hate coming up with titles for blog posts. So I didn't try this time.

On Friday we took Brian's brother Nathan to go get him signed up on our phone plan. His Young Men's program in his ward sends out texts to tell the kids about mutual. Since he didn't have a cell phone he was always missing. So his parents have agreed that it's OK, but they're on a company plan so can't add him. So we are. He also didn't want to buy a new phone, so he agreed to take mine.

I had been contemplating getting an iTouch, but realized that I really just wanted a better phone that could do more. But I just upgraded. So since Nathan took my old one, we got me a new one. I love it! I feel so cool and I can do so much more.

Saturday I got to spend the day with some friends and their VERY cute children. Our husbands went golfing and then to Andinita's, a Venezuelan restaurant. They all served in different missions there around the same time. But none of us wives really like the food. Instead we ended up going for frozen yogurt. Much better.

Saturday night we went out with my cousin and her husband. Always fun to catch up.

Last night I had a dream that we were living in an apartment/house. It was a really big, multiple story apartment, in an apartment complex. It actually reminded me of a building Brian designed about a year ago. Pretty cool.

We had two kids. So happy. And yet for part of the dream I was trying to breastfeed the baby and it wasn't working out. Weird.

We had an impromptu FHE with Brian's family last night. His mom challenged us to write down all the negative or draining thoughts we have and then write down the opposite plus one more good thing. It's been interesting to think about.

Sometimes I think I care too much. When you feel like crying, but try to keep it inside, does it make your throat hurt? It does for me.

I'm so grateful for my husband. He is great.

Tonight Brian's already told me he's going to be late at school. So I'm going to go be crafty with my friend Marci. So excited.