Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Breathing

So I've had quite a few moments lately where I need to remind myself to just keep breathing.

Like when a vacation plan suddenly gets all jumbled and it seems like people are trying to cause problems on purpose (though not really). I need to keep breathing and just talk to people. And usually it gets all sorted out without any more stress.

Or like when I feel like I'm being forgotten or overlooked in situations where I really just want to be noticed or appreciated. (Vain, selfish, call it what you will.) Just keep breathing.

Or when we recently found out that a friend of ours in high school and his wife just lost their baby a week before they were scheduled to induce. He posted about it on his blog today and I got choked up.
Then someone posted a link to another blog about the same thing, which I for some reason felt compelled to click on. I read that and almost had a breakdown at work.
Now I realize why they call it "choked up". It's that tight, painful feeling in your throat when you're trying really hard not to cry.
I had to stop reading, and realize that this pain probably won't ever completely go away. And just keep breathing.

Or when the "Check Engine" light comes on in my car for the second time since we got it. Apparently it's the Fuel Pump Sensor. There's actually nothing wrong with it, but I guess it's a common problem in Subaru's.

And when Brian tells me, every day, that he has to go back to school after dinner, until 12 or later, I just have to keep breathing. It's only one more year. And Fall Break is in 10 days.

When do you have to keep breathing?

1 comment:

Barlow Fam said...

Often. I have to keep breathing when my kids hurt. When I read of others pains. When I can't do anything to help. When my kids are driving me crazy and I feel like I'm going to explode. When church callings seem to rule my life. When I need an escape. When something fun falls through. When I need a money tree. When I feel far from family. When... often.